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August 2016

THAT’S ALL

All I ever wanted was to be a part of your heart and for us to be together to never be apart anyone else in the world could even compare. You are perfect and so is this love we share, we have so much more than I ever thought we would. I love you more than I thought I ever could. I promise to give you all I have to give; I bet I’ll do anything for you as long as I live. In your eyes I see our present, future, and past, by the way you look at me I know we will last. I hope that one day you will come to realize how perfect you are when seen through my eyes.

 

YOU WILL BE THERE

A slit through my heart before it mends my wonders start, in my head trying to figure out, what is this all about, why you keep secrets from me. I’m your only choice, I’m the sound that makes your voices I’m the, I make your silence heard, I help you choose your life, and I’ll be the last you with. Because if you think about it, who’s always there? “Me”, who shows they care? “Me”, who understands? “Me”, I’m in it all alone. From the start till the end I’ve been moving on my own, and from now till then I’m going to do it on my own, I realize your worst enemy is you because how many times have you hurt yourself and how many times you cried on your own. Through thick and thin in your own skin, whatever you do, you do it to you, so let’s face it the only person that will really always be there for you is yourself.

LATELY I’VE BEEN THINKING

How did we end up here, and how then will we end. How long will it take before our relationships mend? Is it fear that stands in the way, or is it words we just can’t say? Back then I wished it would last but now it’s just the past. I do believe in love just like I believe in us, I believe we could stay forever I guess that’s not very clever. Somehow it seem like being with you means giving up on everything I worked for, sometimes you mean more to me than everything in life. A little mess up I wish we would break up. Leave now and don’t turn back just keep walking away I don’t want you to see me cry. I feel like going but I’m holding your hand and I don’t plan on letting go, so if I asked would you come with me. This feels so good so real but in my head it all seems fake, is that what this is a love based on playing the fool, or something you do thinking it’s cool. I’m giving you my all I would catch you if you fall, you have my heart you have me all is there anything of you that’s mine to call. I love you I don’t trust you I need you I don’t want you. Maybe love isn’t for you and I but each time we fail why we still try. I don’t actually know what I fear but it seems s like you can do it. I want to trust just as I want you maybe in time it will all come together maybe I’ll lose you or maybe I’ll never.

 

MY PAIN

All the things we could be, you and me. Living no fear, it’s clear. We are over. I don’t really want it to end like this and I don’t think I can handle the miss of you, but it’s over we are through. As was the time when I knew you always had my back, now… no I’m stranded hanging up in the air. About to fall to the ground because you not there. Can’t get over it, can’t get over you. Falling too deep has unscrewed my heart. Messing up in every way, bring back the day. Let this come to an end. Separation is the worst. Madly in love that’s first. Move on, to what, to who, to where. Not with you, no need to be there, we established it life is unfair. I am here you are there. Miles away so you can’t hear me say…confessed to all but you, an open wound see me through. Hurts still being in love with you.

 

IN YOUR ARMS

 

Standing at the edge of the cliff looking down to the very bottom, just imagine you coming behind me…before you reach I kill the possibility I jump. Down beneath your breath I fall. My flashes before me, my heart crunches and I am such a fool. Why I kick myself I ask myself, was my life that bad?

Realization dawn my mind, I made a mistake it’s too late, still falling I wonder now what is there to find, I have left you behind. I will no more than a memory and my breath would he blown into the air till is fall again as liquid. And taking my life become so hard. Wishing for wings to go back to the start, this time around I wait for you. Just before I hit the ground I take a deep breath and shut my eyes. The horrible nightmare is over, safe in your arms warm and loved, we laid there as the sun razes beat through the window. As one we plan to keep it this way forever. A magical moment we made.

 

 

 

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